MY BROTHER:

In spite of the profoundly unsatisfactory demonstration which you register in your consciousness and of which I am also aware, you are still hovering on the periphery of my Ashram; you are still linked to your group brothers and to me, even if you ignore them and me and go your own way, following your inclinations at any cost. It is always hard when two major rays govern both the personality and the soul. It indicates past achievement of a high order, for the transfer from a minor ray is involved, and this is ever indicative of preparation - at some future date - for initiation. It indicates also great struggle, particularly when the first ray personality is strongly linked to the desire nature.

All this you know, for there is nothing wrong with your intelligence, my brother. What is wrong is that - in the face of knowledge - you will not use the will to force the spiritual issue and to emerge once and for all into the clear light of the soul. Nevertheless, it should not be hard for you to use the will, once contact can be more firmly established with the soul, for you are a first ray personality, and therefore the will aspect can be more easily contacted and comprehended by you than by those on the other rays.

R.S.W. helps you not, much as she has attempted to do so. She does not accept or recognize you for what you are - a man whose lower nature dominates most of the time, but whose basic intent is identification with the higher nature; she sees you differently and her surety along this line is no help to you.

What, then, my brother, shall we do? What shall I say to you in this my last instruction? First, let me say that I am hoping to see, in the next few years of your life, a complete reversal of the past. I look to see you apply, with will and spiritual insight, those physical disciplines which will feed your aspiration and negate and render futile all desire. I look to see you strengthen the tie between yourself and me, your Master.

Do you realize what is the task that confronts me where you are concerned? It is the task of aiding you to transmute your personality nature into such an instrument that your soul can remove you out of my Ashram into that of the Master K.H. Such is my task with several of you in this group; you and they do not essentially belong in my Ashram but stay and work there until the spiritual laws control, the vision is firmly established, and the soul is in control. Will you, with constancy, bear this in mind, and for the remaining years of your life wrestle with the lower nature until it is purified, disciplined, enlightened and integrated?

I give you no set meditation. I enjoin upon you the prime necessity of linking up with your soul, with the Ashram and with me three times a day. I would ask you to do this with a definite act of the will. This triple exercise, carried forward in the morning, at noon, and when you retire at night, will be more potent in transmutative effect than anything else that you can do. Forget not that by means of this exercise you train the will, and you likewise bring spiritual energy into your personality in order to help you with the task, the spiritual task, ahead of you.